Help!!!

So I'm stuck in this situation. I'm feeling like the worlds worst mother right now. I feel like all I do is yell orders, punish my kids, tell them no, send them to time out, put them to bed, and give them spankings when they're really acting up. I want to be a good mom that enforces rules, and has order in her house. But I also want to have fun and play with my kids and make good memories. This whole week hasn't been very good and it's taking me all of my strength to not burst out in tears. I hate crying, but when you feel like a failure, and feel like you're not living up to what is expected it's a little discouraging. I hate writing negitive posts and I hate showing my weaknesses, but I just don't know what to do to become a better mother. I am not happy with myself right now and I need some advice.
    I can tell that my grils get bored at home, even when I take them out side to play they're not enjoying it as much as they should. I admit I don't take them out every day, but it's been so hot and Kenzie has fair skin, sunscreen or not she'll turn bright pink within seconds of being outside. I've looked around for some fun craft Ideas to do with the kids, but most of them require money. What Ideas do you have that will help? I'm up for anything... I just want my kids to be happy.

The day has come!

Well it's Tuesday and if you've read my previous post, you know that today is Aliesha's first day of preschool.  She was SO excited to go. :) I cannot believe how much she has grown up, not to mention how fast!

Dear Aliesha,
    
     You have grown up to be such a beautiful little girl! You are such a fun, sweet person to be around. You are mommy's big helper at home. Your little sister loves you so much as well! When you left today Kenzie cried for about 5 minutes, she just stood down stairs and cried, Leisha, Leisha. :) It's so cute to see how much she loves you and cares for you. You are the best big sister. I know you will have lots of friends, and be a good example to those friends. You are such a smart girl and you will love this new adventure. Mommy and Daddy love you so very much and we know you are capable of great things. I love you and I am so excited to see you when you come home and talk about your first day of school. I love you so much, you are a great example to me, your dad and to you sister. Have the best first day of preschool!

Lot's of love Mommy and Daddy.

Here are some pictures of Aliesha on her first day of preschool. (Of course Kenzie had to get in some of the pictures.)

I love you Beautiful Girl!

School.

So a while ago I posted a post about trying to make decisions, specifically Aliesha's school. We had been wanting to put her into a good school that has a good curriculum, and that would teach her many things. She's a smart girl and I want a school that will fulfill her potential. One of Greg's co-workers puts her kids in Challenger, so we looked into that and decided that that's where we want Aliesha and McKenzie to go. It was spendy so we were really second guessing our decision, but we finally just went with it. We set up an appointment to go in, tour the building, ask our questions and get some answers. Aliesha loved it. We filled out an application and that was that. Aliesha was really upset when we left. Her exact words... "But I didn't even learn anything! And I wanted to play with friends!" haha. Silly girl. After we explained to her that we were just looking at the school, and that if they accept her then she can go to school, she was fine. A couple of weeks passes and then we got a letter in the mail saying that they accepted Aliesha! WAHOO! We were so excited! And so was Aliesha! :)

So yesterday Aliesha asked about school and when she's going to go. I walked her over to the calendar and pointed to the day we were at and the day her school starts! And can you believe it! Only two weeks left!!!!!! WHAT! I couldn't believe it! Every day she get's closer and closer to school, and every day she gets more and more excited. She'll tell people, "I'm going to challenger skoo..." Yeah we're still trying to get her to say, School, right since the "L" isn't as pronounced as, Love, Look, etc she often forgets that there is one. haha. We're working on it. And I'm mean and say to her if you can't say schooL right then you're not going to go to schooL. Then she starts saying it right. :) So mean I know.

Anyways, we are all excited for her to start, and learn new things. But most of all we are excited for her to gain a social life. So lets hope she learns and has a lot of friends.

Date Night!

Since last week was not a good week for my family. Greg and I decided to have a fun date night. One of Greg's clients bought him and me tickets to the Demolition derby up in Heber/Midway! We've never been and thought it would be a fun experience. So Greg's mom came over to our house to watch our girls, who are still sick. And we were on our way up to Heber. We ate at the Dairy Keen, which is really good! And the we went to the Derby. Here are some pics...

Some of the derby cars in the pit.

 As you can tell the car's aren't kept in the best condition.

That is a hose all duct taped up.

 One of the derby cars

 Greg and me

 These cars were really loud. I loved seeing them just slam 

into eachother. :)

 The first roll over! YEAH!!!

 Don't worry the guy was just fine. He even went over and hugged the guy 

rolled him over.

 One of our friends Andy! He had just gotten done running 26.2 miles!

He finished it in like 5 hours! Way to go Andy!

 These two guys rammed right into eachother, and then were stuck 

like that till the end of the round. They had to literally pry them apart.

 This purple truck rolled over the black one and was stuck ontop of it. 

They had to bring in a tractor to pull the purple one down

cause it didn't have reverse.

 This picture looks like it was a fire but it wasn't. Just a ton of smoke

coming from a car.

If you can't tell the back tire is off, and the car was still driving along slammin' 

into cars.

This was seriously a lot of fun! I would love to go again for the next time they do this. Now here's some videos for your own enjoyment...